Safeta Cerimovic, USA
As a child who survived the Bosnian War, I carry memories of trauma, displacement, and the deep wounds of hatred that were sown during a time of immense suffering. I arrived in the United States with a broken heart, haunted by the past and unsure of my future. However, through the mercy of Allah and the light of Ahmadiyyat, I found healing. My journey from war-torn Bosnia to the spiritual sanctuary of Khilafat has been one of transformation – from pain to peace, from hate to hope.
I was only eight years old when my childhood ended. In the peaceful village of eastern Bosnia where I lived, spring usually meant freedom, the end of the school year, and the start of long, carefree summer days spent with family, animals, and nature in the mountains. But in May of that year, everything changed. War erupted, and in an instant, my world turned to ashes. My village was burned, and our neighbours, many of whom had been our teachers and local leaders,turned against us. Fear moved in, and innocence moved out. From that moment forward, life became a constant search for safety.
For four years, we were displaced again and again, moving from one so-called “safe zone” to another. I was often separated from my father for months, enduring a nine-month separation once, which felt unbearable. My education was interrupted, friendships scattered, and the trauma, though silent, was deeply engraved into my being. Even when the war officially ended, peace felt like a word spoken too soon. The outside world may have moved on, but I, like so many others, carried the invisible scars of war. I had lost trust, stability, and, worst of all, I had started losing my ability to hope.
Yet through all of this, there was one refuge that never betrayed me: the mosque. No matter where we fled, the masjid remained a place of calm and grounding. As a child, I sought Allah’s mercy there. During the war, I returned again and again, clinging to my faith like a raft in stormy waters. However, even in the mosque, something felt missing. The walls and sanctity of the mosque always reminded me that I was in the house of Allah, a place of security and mercy. Yet, the interpretations of Islamic teachings I heard from Imams often seemed filtered through politics or culture. Their messages felt rigid and, at times, devoid of the compassion and mercy I found in the Holy Quran.
I couldn’t articulate it back then, but I sensed that the teachings of the Quran were deeper than what I was hearing. I kept searching, hoping, and waiting.
Eventually, after the war, my family moved to Sarajevo. In 2000, we made the painful but necessary decision to immigrate to the United States. My youngest sister needed medical care, and the post-war Bosnian economy offered little hope. I was a teenager when we arrived in America, but instead of finding relief, I was plunged into a different kind of shock.
Everything was unfamiliar: the language, the people, and the schools. I was dropped into an American high school where I couldn’t understand a word, couldn’t relate to anyone, and felt utterly alone. In that loneliness, an old darkness returned: resentment.
All my suffering and trauma resurfaced, and in my heart, I began to associate it with those who practiced a different faith. The scars of war turned into blame. My heart ached, and the confusion of migration only intensified my inner conflict. Why was I in this distant land? I blamed those who had forced me to leave my village, feeling the deep injustice of being uprooted and placed in a land so far from everything I had ever known.
Then, something changed. I became more regular in my prayers than ever before. A few weeks after our arrival, my older brother’s friend, someone he had gone to high school with back in Bosnia, visited us. He had already been in America for a year and helped us navigate our new reality.
What struck me most weren’t his language skills or advice; it was his faith. He prayed and spoke about Islam with such conviction and love. He said something that stunned us: “The Promised Messiah, the Imam Mahdi, has already come.” Although I felt a little puzzled by some of the things he told us, due to not knowing this kind of interpretation of Islam, I became deeply curious and asked for books. At that time, only two had been translated into Bosnian. I devoured them. They felt like water in a desert. For the first time, I felt like I was beginning to understand the Islam of the Holy Prophet Muhammadsa, not the Islam I had grown up with, shaped by cultural rigidity and trauma, but one rooted in mercy, justice, and universal love.
I studied more deeply by reading the Bosnian translation of the Holy Quran, cross-referencing verses, and exploring commentary. Through the teachings of the Promised Messiahas, Islam opened up to me like a flower in bloom. Verses I had known for years began to shine with new light:
“Repel [evil] with that which is best. And lo, he between whom and thyself was enmity will become as though he were a warm friend.” (Surah Ha Mim as-Sajdah, Ch.41: V.35)
“And We have sent thee not but as a mercy for all peoples.” (Surah al-Anbiya, Ch.21: V.108)
Abdullahra ibn ‘Amr reported that the Messengersa of Allah said, “The merciful are shown mercy by Ar-Rahman. Be merciful on the earth, and you will be shown mercy from Who is above the heavens. The womb is named after Ar-Rahman, so whoever connects it, Allah connects him, and whoever severs it, Allah severs him.” (Jami’ at-Tirmidhi, Kitab al-birri wal-silati ‘an rasulillahi sallalahu alayhi wa sallam, Hadith 1924)
Growing up, I often heard many verses and hadith shared by Imams in my local mosques. However, the emphasis was frequently on applying these values primarily within the Muslim community, toward fellow believers.
While kindness toward Muslims is important, the verses themselves convey a much broader message. They are not limited to Muslims alone; they articulate a universal ethic, a mercy and goodness that should extend to all people. The harsh interpretations I had once encountered melted away in the warmth of these truths. I came to realise that kindness, forgiveness, and love are not signs of weakness; they are signs of divine strength.
It wasn’t until I began reading the writings of the Promised Messiahas, who was the most humble and sincere servant of the Holy Prophet Muhammadsa, that I truly began to understand this. His explanations not only echoed these teachings but also embodied them.
The Promised Messiahas reminded us:
“Exert all your power to spread the Oneness of God on earth. Show mercy to His servants and do not wrong them by your tongue or your hand or by any other means, and strive for the welfare of God’s creation. Behave not arrogantly towards anyone even if he is your subordinate, and revile not anyone even if he should revile you. Become humble, tolerant, well-intentioned and compassionate towards God’s creation so that you may be accepted by God.
There are many who show meekness, but they are wolves from within. There are many who outwardly appear clean, but from within they are serpents. You, therefore, cannot be accepted by God unless you are the same inside and out.” (Noah’s Ark [Kashti-e-Nuh], pp. 19-20)
And then, I learned about Khilafat.
For most of my life, I carried wounds I couldn’t name, the pain of being forced to leave my village, the heartbreak of leaving my country, and the weight of memories no child should have to bear. I searched for peace, belonging, and a reason behind the suffering, as well as the strength to forgive.
Through the Khulafa-e-Ahmadiyyat, I found something I never expected: healing. The message of Islam was not just preserved through them; it was lived. The Khulafa did not merely preach about the mercy of the Holy Prophet Muhammadsa; they embodied it. As I read and listened to their sermons, books and guidance to the Jamaat, I repeatedly encountered the same truth: that Islam, at its heart, is a faith of peace, compassion, and service to all of humanity.
It was in the words of Hazrat Khalifatul Masih IVrh that I felt something shift inside me, as if he were speaking directly to the fractured places in my soul:
“We are linked with God, and the whole world is our homeland. We have been created for the sake of good. Our message is Unite in goodness and righteousness. We should help one another to promote those qualities.” (Opening address, Jalsa Salana UK, 31 July 1992 – The Unity of God)
These words, along with similar messages from all the Khulafa-e-Ahmadiyyat, didn’t just comfort me; they healed me with the mercy of Allah. They restored my sense of identity, not as a refugee or a victim, but as a servant of God with a purpose greater than pain: to spread the message of Islam, to spread love, foster peace, and unite hearts.
Being a convert comes with its own kind of trauma, especially when you lack a supportive environment. You may lose friendships, family ties, and the sense of belonging you once had. In that vulnerable state, it becomes easy to feel hurt, disappointed, or discouraged, even by small things. Sometimes, observing fellow Ahmadis and realising how some fall short of the beautiful teachings of Ahmadiyyat, witnessing this can wound you deeply.
Although Ahmadiyyat healed the wounds of war and helped me move forward in my life, embracing this faith also meant distancing myself from many things that were once dear to me. In those first five or six years, I struggled. I was young, and it was difficult to understand how a few who belonged to such a beautiful Jamaat could sometimes act in ways so different from the teachings in our books.
Now, looking back 25 years later, I realise that I had placed people on an unrealistically high pedestal. The internal conflict of loving Ahmadiyyat while feeling lost within the community was finally resolved the moment I met Hazrat Khalifatul Masih Vaa.
I never had the honour of meeting Hazrat Khalifatul Masih IVrh, but in 2008, I was blessed to meet Hazrat Khalifatul Masih Vaa for the first time. At that time, I was going through an intense inner struggle to find my place, let go of what I had lost, and hold on to what I had gained.
Knowing that our Khalifa has a packed schedule and that private audiences are brief, I asked my husband to let me speak, as I wanted the opportunity to ask Huzooraa the questions that had troubled my heart for so long.
We waited for five or six hours. I remember watching people go in and out of Huzoor’saa office, coming out smiling or with tears in their eyes. It was a beautiful experience. Finally, it was our turn.
I had heard many Ahmadis describe what it felt like to meet the Khalifa, but no description could have prepared me. The moment you enter, your heart finds peace. Huzoor’saa face might appear physically tired, but his presence, his nur [divine light], and the atmosphere envelop you completely.
As for my questions… they were never asked.
In those precious two or three minutes, I could only cry. I didn’t say much except for silent gratitude for being in his presence. My six-year-old son ended up doing most of the talking. Huzooraa, with his gentle voice, asked me more than once, “Are you okay?” He even looked at my husband and asked him to confirm if I was okay. When he saw my husband tear up and remain quiet, my son captured Huzooraa full attention, and they communicated.
That was all, no lectures, no answers. Just that. And somehow, it was everything. In that brief moment, Allah released the tension in my heart. He lifted the sadness, bitterness, and confusion. Once again, I was healed, not with words, but through the silent mercy that flows through Khilafat.
Today, I no longer define myself by what I lost, but by what I’ve found: a faith that taught me to forgive, a community that gave me purpose, and a spiritual leader whose prayers continue to uplift millions, including me. The trauma of war shaped my early years, but it did not define my future. Through Ahmadiyyat and the guidance of Khilafat, I discovered not just who I am, but who I am meant to be: a servant of God, a voice of hope and peace, and a follower of a divine mission.
In the presence of Hazrat Khalifatul Masihaa, I found what I had been searching for all my life, not answers, but peace; not explanations, but healing. Through this connection, I learned how to let go of hatred and embrace love.
